status anxiety

today i read a book by my current favorite author, Alain de Botton, called Status Anxiety. I absolutely did not mean to buy Status Anxiety because it doesn't exactly fit into my unemployment budget but faced with A.D.B i am hopefully fiscally irresponsible, maybe because he gives me such hope that why, really, should i care about that errant $15. I only even went into Barnes & Noble to use the bathroom but the line at the bathroom was really long and my friends weren't re-emerging so i walked in circles around the displays. His other books The Consolations of Philosophy, The Art of Travel, and How Proust Can Change Your Life have inspired me and reminded me of things that are wonderful and crucial and too easy to forget and made me LAUGH outloud, to myself, repeatedly. I sit on the fire escape and stare off in the distance and smile. a lot. I'm thinking a lot about laughter.

- jess